7th World: [ voice/video ] A Question of the Mind

[universal_charm]

[ The image presented on the screen shows a Kirk that looks like he probably just got up. He doesn't have enough hair for it to look to messy, but somehow it manages it, and his eyes look bleary. He runs a hand over his face and sighs. ]

Okay, how badly do you need therapy when even you have to admit that you need therapy? 

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[universal_charm]

It's not grief, not... It's not grief or anything. I'm just.. I just don't know what to do about it.

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[rightfootforward]

What happened? It would help if I could get a picture of what exactly "it" is.

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[universal_charm]

Relationships. I'm not good at them, I've never wanted one.

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[rightfootforward]

I take it you found yourself embroiled in one, then?

One that can't be broken off with a simple rebuttal?

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[universal_charm]

If it were that easy, believe me, I would have done. But, you know, kindly.

_{[ Except, maybe not. He doesn't know! ]}

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[rightfootforward]

I would hope you would be a gentleman about it.

Is the woman quite infatuated still, even after the experiment has passed?

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[universal_charm]

Er... not... exactly a woman we're talking about.

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[rightfootforward]

[.....................Oh. Well. That is. ...something she has considerably less experience with, but ooookay.]

....I suppose that one part of what makes this such a difficult refusal?

her icon is perfect, lol

[universal_charm]

Not a refusal. Or I dunno, maybe. He's... he's my friend. I don't want to hurt him.

haha thanks

[rightfootforward]

Are you unsure whether or not you wish to pursue the relationship at all?

Or just afraid of hurting a friend? If the latter, you could do much more harm in letting him continue thinking there is a chance, than to end the option entirely.

Re: haha thanks

[universal_charm]

That's just it, I'm not sure. Everything's jumbled up inside my head. Like... like puzzle pieces in the box after you shake it, you know?

[rightfootforward]

[Yeah, she knows. It can be confusing when you're trying to parse out your feelings, and she can only imagine how much more difficult it is when the object of your possible affections is not only a friend, but of your same gender.

She falls quiet for a bit, thinking about his query and the underlying problem of it all. There really is no neat answer for it, but there never really is when it comes to things like this.]

Well, the first thing to do would be to sort the pieces out. Putting his feelings aside, what do you feel?

[universal_charm]

_{[ He checked to make sure this video was still locked, even though he didn't want to say it. He didn't want to examine his feelings. He didn't do that. The less feelings he had to examine the better. ]}

Scared.

_{[ Because it was true and he just really couldn't make himself lie to that pretty face. ]}

[rightfootforward]

And honest.

That's good though. These questions might seem basic, but it's important. Why are you scared of this?

[universal_charm]

I told you, I don't do relationships. I do... flings, hook ups, get togethers.

[rightfootforward]

That doesn't answer the question.

[Not really. It gives a surface reason, but not the whole thing. Why not "do" relationships?]

You have a chance at something else - but you are afraid of taking it.

[universal_charm]

Yeah, I guess that's a way of looking at it.

[rightfootforward]

[She knows relationships aren't for everyone. Hell, she hasn't been in one since Steve and that is saying something since she waited until seeing him here again to try once more.

But his answer seems strange.]

So are you going to let fear of the unknown rule you, Captain?

[universal_charm]

If I did that, I wouldn't be heading off on a mission to discover unknown worlds and species now would I?

_{[ Seriously, that's his mission on the Enterprise. A part of him feels it's because Command wants him far away from Earth and out of trouble. ]}

[rightfootforward]

Well, then the fear of this unknown 'world' shouldn't stop you, should it? Unless it is territory you'd rather not explore, and then you simply need to admit as such.

[universal_charm]

Heh, touche, miss, touche.

[rightfootforward]

What is the saying? "Call them as I see them," or some such?