[ Kirk nodded, bringing up Fenris' hand to his lips and kissing the knuckles, brushing across them with his nose. ]
I won't ask more of you than you can give, and if I ever do, please, please tell me. Talk to me. I will listen and we can talk it out. Like I said, honesty between us.
[ He put Fenris' hand in his lap and continued to stroke his knuckles. ]
[Fenris watches Kirk's motions with the faintest of smiles across his lips. When he asks his question, the elf shrugs in response. Because, honestly, he doesn't need much more than what Kirk already offers. ]
You already understand how I tend to be, and the reasons why I am. That is all I need, understanding- knowing that sometimes I need to step back. That I can't be held too tightly or expected too much of. You already give me this.
[He lets out a soft chuckle, eyes closing at the contact for a moment, content to just...be there. It's been a shitty day, all of his own doing, but a shitty day nonetheless. ]
Oh, well, you know - getting to stay in my cabin, getting to bother me at
all hours, getting to kiss me...
[ He smirked, glancing at him out of the corner of his eye and hoping
his attempt at humor landed. This was easier, his chest less tight and his
stomach not quite so knotted up. ]
[ He bit his lip a little around the smile, though his grip on Fenris'
hand remained tender, thumb brushing across warm skin and idly tracing the
paths of lyrium he came across. ]
[ Admittedly, after Fenris' admission, this probably wasn't the place
things should go. They probably weren't, but he didn't mind if they did. He
was still upset over Fenris not telling him at first, but he couldn't hold
onto it. Not if he wanted them to be able to move forward. Besides, he was
trying now, and he gave him credit for that, and wanted to have faith in
him moving forward. ]
I'm going to hold you to it.
[ His head tilted, nose brushing against Fenris' cheek. ]
[Fenris was very good at not dealing with his emotions by engaging in other things. Sex, fighting, training. It was easier than facing all of the internal mess that was his own head. Still, even he knew this was not the best course of action. He exhaled, pressing a kiss against Kirk's jawl before moving back a little. ]
Though, perhaps it would be better to decompress first.
[ Kirk nodded in affirmation, thinking the same things, knowing it was
right to do and not let either of them unintentionally take advantage of
the other. Even so, he cupped his face and gave him a proper kiss on the
mouth, the slightest suck on his bottom lip. ]
Want a drink? Or is that bad for decompressing too?
I know. But I know sometimes things can happen. And I would ask that of
anyone on this ship really - if I knew they planned to get drunk off their
asses. Or if you do go out - call one of us to shuttle you home, please?
[ And he says no more on it. Fenris could call it mollycoddling if he
wanted, for Kirk it was just the basic sort of concern you should show for
a friend whom you knew was going to go out drinking. Least of all someone
you had just entered a relationship with. ]
When you have some time, perhaps we can read together too? We haven't done
so in a long while.
That is true. Perhaps we will find something entirely different to read. As much as I am grateful for the Fleet's...offerings towards me, there is only so much of it you can read.
[He's getting kinda bored with all the objectified Scotsman stuff, ok. ]
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I won't ask more of you than you can give, and if I ever do, please, please tell me. Talk to me. I will listen and we can talk it out. Like I said, honesty between us.
[ He put Fenris' hand in his lap and continued to stroke his knuckles. ]
What is it you need from me?
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You already understand how I tend to be, and the reasons why I am. That is all I need, understanding- knowing that sometimes I need to step back. That I can't be held too tightly or expected too much of. You already give me this.
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[ He gave Fenris' hand another squeeze and leaned over, kissing the side of Fenris' temple, leaning his forehead against him for a brief moment. ]
To be honest, I'm not sure what to do now. I did warn you I was bad at this sort of thing...
[ He huffed beneath his breath. ]
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You are better at it than you believe.
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Not as good as I should be, really. But I try.
[ He gave a wry little smile. ]
You can stay here for as long as you want, by the way. I suppose us being involved gives you a few new privileges.
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Privileges, hm? I was not aware this came with privileges.
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Oh, well, you know - getting to stay in my cabin, getting to bother me at all hours, getting to kiss me...
[ He smirked, glancing at him out of the corner of his eye and hoping his attempt at humor landed. This was easier, his chest less tight and his stomach not quite so knotted up. ]
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Those are very alluring privileges.
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Hopefully you make good use of them.
[ He bit his lip a little around the smile, though his grip on Fenris' hand remained tender, thumb brushing across warm skin and idly tracing the paths of lyrium he came across. ]
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I can assure you, I absolutely will.
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[ Admittedly, after Fenris' admission, this probably wasn't the place things should go. They probably weren't, but he didn't mind if they did. He was still upset over Fenris not telling him at first, but he couldn't hold onto it. Not if he wanted them to be able to move forward. Besides, he was trying now, and he gave him credit for that, and wanted to have faith in him moving forward. ]
I'm going to hold you to it.
[ His head tilted, nose brushing against Fenris' cheek. ]
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Though, perhaps it would be better to decompress first.
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[ Kirk nodded in affirmation, thinking the same things, knowing it was right to do and not let either of them unintentionally take advantage of the other. Even so, he cupped his face and gave him a proper kiss on the mouth, the slightest suck on his bottom lip. ]
Want a drink? Or is that bad for decompressing too?
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Perhaps one. I would very much like to get very, very drunk, but that would end...rather badly, probably.
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I would prefer you do it on the ship at least. I'd worry otherwise.
[ He got up and went to the place he kept his small store of alcohol. He pulled out the nicer of the bottles and two glasses, giving one to Fenris. ]
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You do know I can take care of myself, right?
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I know. But I know sometimes things can happen. And I would ask that of anyone on this ship really - if I knew they planned to get drunk off their asses. Or if you do go out - call one of us to shuttle you home, please?
[ Because Uber isn't a thing here. ]
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I suppose I can do that much. For your peace of mind.
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Thank you.
[ And he says no more on it. Fenris could call it mollycoddling if he wanted, for Kirk it was just the basic sort of concern you should show for a friend whom you knew was going to go out drinking. Least of all someone you had just entered a relationship with. ]
When you have some time, perhaps we can read together too? We haven't done so in a long while.
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I would like that very much, actually.
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[ He does try. ]
We're on a planet that sells just about anything. I'm sure we can find some new novels to read.
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[He's getting kinda bored with all the objectified Scotsman stuff, ok. ]